So much suffering

The more I am involved in social work, the more suffering I see.

And the practical me cannot see the way out to reduce all the suffering around.

I started this entry almost a year ago. But it has been sitting in my draft box for a long long time.

But now, I think I have a better idea of suffering. A "solution" to the questions that I had.

There is no conventional way of being able to reduce the suffering of those around us. How much money can we donate, how much time can we spend doing volunteer work, how can we stop natural disasters from happening...We can give of our all, but there is a limit to that, and normally, it is not sufficient to stop or even reduce human suffering.

I see the suffering, and there was nothing I can do.

After some experiences, I realised that while there is a limit to what I can do, as long as I have given of my best, and am true to myself, that is sufficient. In addition, the real method to deal with suffering, be it our own, or others, is simply, to ACCEPT IT.

Accept that there will forever be suffering until all sentient beings are enlightened. That suffering just is. That the suffering, should provide us with the drive and motivation to study and practice the Dharma.

The understanding of the First Noble Truth.

I see and accept suffering.

To choose to Suffer

Who on earth would choose to suffer?
Not the typical average human being.

If you are/want to practice, you will choose suffering. For that is the easiest and fastest way to cultivate.
I understand that fact, but that does not mean that I am able to happily accept the suffering that comes my way.

I look at the suffering, I know deep in my mind that it is for my own cultivation sake/good, but the ignorance and wrong views arise, and "argues" with me, that I do not need all this. And it is a struggle, to accept that suffering. Especially when there is the option to reject the suffering lesson, to continue to hold on to unwholesome thoughts, etc.

And I undergo 2 levels of suffering.
The actual suffering, and the suffering of suffering. I suffer because I need to accept the suffering, and I do not want to.
Argh. Double the power.

Some parts of me want the suffering, but the other rejects.
I am still struggling, I am still suffering