Just to share my own path, which does seem to me as if it could be generic. [Not that I am anywhere near enlightenment]
My path to enlightenment...
Where and how should I start? Hm. I suppose I started from a non foundational practice, thru the chanting of Om mani padme hung and later 阿弥陀佛.
I learnt about the western pureland before I learnt about the fundamentals in Buddhism teachings. So for a long time, I was just chanting mindlessly. Not real mindlessly, but chanting with a lack of understanding and realizations. But 行 or worst in my case 形 cannot help or last for long. I thought it was "sufficient" but I was obviously wrong, and that depressed me for a while.
Luckily for me, I had e fortune to attend classes, meet spiritual teachers and have experiences that aided in my realizations. Classes here and there slowly but surely added onto my knowledge and let me see deeper into the true nature of reality.
The four noble truths are deeply ingrained in me after a tough lesson of lost. Emptiness is hovering for realizations around me. Bodhicitta is understood but yet to be fully cultivated.
The path is unwinding in front of me as I slowly take baby steps toward. I aspire to live each day in accord with my long term motivation of achieving full enlightenment for the benefits of all sentient beings. Amituofo
Friday, December 25, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Does not all religion teach you to be good?
There are many levels to look at should one want to reflect on religions.
But on a very very basic level, I respect all religions, simply because I believe that fundamentally, all religions teach us to be good.
No doubt there are differences in philosophies and all, but as a human being, I understand that religions are basically kind, and that it provides lost beings with an anchor. From a Buddhism angle, it might not be the right anchor, but at the very least, it is better than nothing, and that it doesnt exactly harm us.
If they are so lost that a worldly religion can bring them comfort, I would say go ahead. From a shortsighted perspective, at least in this life time, they have some direction and guidance.
But on a very very basic level, I respect all religions, simply because I believe that fundamentally, all religions teach us to be good.
No doubt there are differences in philosophies and all, but as a human being, I understand that religions are basically kind, and that it provides lost beings with an anchor. From a Buddhism angle, it might not be the right anchor, but at the very least, it is better than nothing, and that it doesnt exactly harm us.
If they are so lost that a worldly religion can bring them comfort, I would say go ahead. From a shortsighted perspective, at least in this life time, they have some direction and guidance.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
The sun never rises
Is that right?
Science will tell you that is true. For the earth is rotating on its axis, around the sun, and hence gives the impression that the sun is rising and setting. Yet it is not. But our naked eye sees it as if it is.
So is it rising, or is it not?
The sun is a good example. An example that we should not just believe what we can see, because it is not the ultimate reality. Before scientist discovered that we are rotating around the sun, it was believed that everything "rotates" around us. But that is not the case.
Similarly, there are many other truths that are yet to be discovered, so why do we persist in thinking that what we know of now is the ultimate truth?
Remember, the sun never rises, and the moon is always present.
Science will tell you that is true. For the earth is rotating on its axis, around the sun, and hence gives the impression that the sun is rising and setting. Yet it is not. But our naked eye sees it as if it is.
So is it rising, or is it not?
The sun is a good example. An example that we should not just believe what we can see, because it is not the ultimate reality. Before scientist discovered that we are rotating around the sun, it was believed that everything "rotates" around us. But that is not the case.
Similarly, there are many other truths that are yet to be discovered, so why do we persist in thinking that what we know of now is the ultimate truth?
Remember, the sun never rises, and the moon is always present.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Without curtains, light shines in
Life in a house without curtains, is truly different....
The light shines in unobstructed, and lights up everything in its path. Everything within the house reflects the light, and is ultra bright, as if it has its own light.
Objects in the house, which has been there for years, seems to look different. And one gains a fresh insight into the objects, and into being.
One awakes to the sun light shinning in, and begins one's day with the fresh perspective of gratitude of the light and air around.
Looking out at the vast expanse, colours are reflected and tranquility attained.
Life without curtains is a joyful experience.
The light shines in unobstructed, and lights up everything in its path. Everything within the house reflects the light, and is ultra bright, as if it has its own light.
Objects in the house, which has been there for years, seems to look different. And one gains a fresh insight into the objects, and into being.
One awakes to the sun light shinning in, and begins one's day with the fresh perspective of gratitude of the light and air around.
Looking out at the vast expanse, colours are reflected and tranquility attained.
Life without curtains is a joyful experience.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Without curtains
Took off the curtains to be washed. Let me share a dirty laundry secret with you. My curtains have not been washed since they were first put up, when I moved in in 2006. lol....
Anyway, now the house looks and feels a little different. The lack of curtains seem to amplify the echoes....or our noise/sound.
I was looking out of my curtainless windows, appreciating the view outside and noticing the emptiness of the house. And I thank all and everyone for what I am and have today.
Somehow the curtains seem to make a difference. One where one has the opportunity to hide in the house, behind the curtains. As if the curtains can shield one from one's mistakes and wrongdoings....
That was how i felt all of a sudden, when the curtains were removed, that my life is open for all to view. But I am not fearful of that now. Not because I never made mistakes, but because I faced up to them, and I do not let my thoughts run wild out of fear or regret.
Now how would your life be like without curtains???
Anyway, now the house looks and feels a little different. The lack of curtains seem to amplify the echoes....or our noise/sound.
I was looking out of my curtainless windows, appreciating the view outside and noticing the emptiness of the house. And I thank all and everyone for what I am and have today.
Somehow the curtains seem to make a difference. One where one has the opportunity to hide in the house, behind the curtains. As if the curtains can shield one from one's mistakes and wrongdoings....
That was how i felt all of a sudden, when the curtains were removed, that my life is open for all to view. But I am not fearful of that now. Not because I never made mistakes, but because I faced up to them, and I do not let my thoughts run wild out of fear or regret.
Now how would your life be like without curtains???
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Fear comes from the image in ur head
Does it make sense to say that there is no such thing as real fear?
If we were to think logically about it, and analyse fear, to some extent, you will find out that there is no real fear.
Let's say you fear failing your exam. But why do you fear the failure. What will really happen to you should you fail? Will you die? No! So what is there to fear? You might say that you fear disappointing yourself and your parents. But while they might be upset with you, nothing will really happen to you, so what's with the fear. (Yes, you might get canned, but that is really not life threatening)
Very often, if we apply our rational and logical mind to our thoughts and emotions, we will reach the conclusion that fear is in our mind. We make certain assumptions, or have certain stereotypes, or prejudices, that brings about fear. If death is certain, and most phenomenon/happening around us does not lead to death, what is the need or use for fear?
We create an image of fear in our mind, and blow it out of proportion. Our mind leads us, and we need to control our mind, our thoughts. There is no such thing as fear, but the mind that creates it...
If we were to think logically about it, and analyse fear, to some extent, you will find out that there is no real fear.
Let's say you fear failing your exam. But why do you fear the failure. What will really happen to you should you fail? Will you die? No! So what is there to fear? You might say that you fear disappointing yourself and your parents. But while they might be upset with you, nothing will really happen to you, so what's with the fear. (Yes, you might get canned, but that is really not life threatening)
Very often, if we apply our rational and logical mind to our thoughts and emotions, we will reach the conclusion that fear is in our mind. We make certain assumptions, or have certain stereotypes, or prejudices, that brings about fear. If death is certain, and most phenomenon/happening around us does not lead to death, what is the need or use for fear?
We create an image of fear in our mind, and blow it out of proportion. Our mind leads us, and we need to control our mind, our thoughts. There is no such thing as fear, but the mind that creates it...
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Crying wolf
Of course there are situations where the person cries wolf, but not deliberately.
But it will still create the impression that it is not serious, and when the axe really falls, everyone kenas.
Is there a point to this?
Just a reminder to myself not to judge, and to take each situation seriously.
Somehow, I am always encountering "cried wolf" scenarios.
But it will still create the impression that it is not serious, and when the axe really falls, everyone kenas.
Is there a point to this?
Just a reminder to myself not to judge, and to take each situation seriously.
Somehow, I am always encountering "cried wolf" scenarios.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Why are you going there?
This didnt happen to me, but i would like to share it. [But i think i have a similiar entry from before]
I do some befriending work at the Patient Care Centre of TTSH's CDC. And a fellow befriender shared his experience with his friends.
He told his friends that he volunteers at the Communicable Disease Centre, and the reaction that he got in return, was "WHY are YOU going there?"
Just because some diseases MIGHT be contagious or communicable under certain conditions (which is within our control), doesnt mean that we should avoid the patient, or not show care and concern.
I can only assume/guess what was going through that friend's head. "Those people do not deserve our care. I do not want to be associated with them. What if I get the disease too..."
But the purpose of this entry is more to ask myself. Why do I go there, and why am I fearful of sharing about my befriending work.
I do some befriending work at the Patient Care Centre of TTSH's CDC. And a fellow befriender shared his experience with his friends.
He told his friends that he volunteers at the Communicable Disease Centre, and the reaction that he got in return, was "WHY are YOU going there?"
Just because some diseases MIGHT be contagious or communicable under certain conditions (which is within our control), doesnt mean that we should avoid the patient, or not show care and concern.
I can only assume/guess what was going through that friend's head. "Those people do not deserve our care. I do not want to be associated with them. What if I get the disease too..."
But the purpose of this entry is more to ask myself. Why do I go there, and why am I fearful of sharing about my befriending work.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Being compassionate
"Being compassionate not only changes the person we are compassionate to; it changes our concept of self and other perspectives."
Part of being compassionate involves realising and seeing that all beings are suffering and seek happiness.
When we truly realise that we are all the same, suffering in this cyclic existence, there would not be a need to compare and compete. And we would be inspired to aid other beings to reduce their sufferings. Why make others suffer more....
True compassion takes action to reduce suffering of all beings, be it in the little things that we do on a daily basis.
Part of being compassionate involves realising and seeing that all beings are suffering and seek happiness.
When we truly realise that we are all the same, suffering in this cyclic existence, there would not be a need to compare and compete. And we would be inspired to aid other beings to reduce their sufferings. Why make others suffer more....
True compassion takes action to reduce suffering of all beings, be it in the little things that we do on a daily basis.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Dont be a lone candle
A fellow volunteer once told me, "Dont be a lone candle".
And it is a very good analogy.
"Much like holding a lone candle, it only lights up so much space. When we light up each other’s candle, the whole place is now much brighter.
Nobody lose anything, everybody gain something."
Encouragement and support from follow Buddhists are very important. Pls continue to support and encourage those around you, and light up their way. We need not be lone candles. There are many others on the same path towards enlightenment, and we can all share our light and experiences.
And it is a very good analogy.
"Much like holding a lone candle, it only lights up so much space. When we light up each other’s candle, the whole place is now much brighter.
Nobody lose anything, everybody gain something."
Encouragement and support from follow Buddhists are very important. Pls continue to support and encourage those around you, and light up their way. We need not be lone candles. There are many others on the same path towards enlightenment, and we can all share our light and experiences.
Friday, December 11, 2009
I havnt died yet, so I dont know
Attended a talk on dying (sometime in Aug)
And the doctor speaker, when questioned on some aspects of death replied "I havent died yet, so I dont know".
It was obviously a very good answer. No one (as a general rule) alive can answer any questions about death. Hence the fear. But as said, fear isnt real. And death is the only outcome of this life (rebirth in pureland is a different story), so what is the big deal?
And the doctor speaker, when questioned on some aspects of death replied "I havent died yet, so I dont know".
It was obviously a very good answer. No one (as a general rule) alive can answer any questions about death. Hence the fear. But as said, fear isnt real. And death is the only outcome of this life (rebirth in pureland is a different story), so what is the big deal?
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Why learn emptiness
Simply put, to see the true nature of all phenomenon, so as to rid our minds of the three poisons and mental defilements.
On a more basic level, to reduce and remove attachment (because all is empty), so as to achieve happiness, peace and less suffering (of the mind which we induce)
On a more basic level, to reduce and remove attachment (because all is empty), so as to achieve happiness, peace and less suffering (of the mind which we induce)
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Three stages of emptiness learning
According to Venerable, there is 3 stages to the learning and realisation of emptiness.
1) Physical things are empty
2) Name/Label is empty
3) Physicality is empty
In the previous Whatever-ness entries, I have already covered 1 and 2.
Ie, the bowl of laksa (physical thing) is empty (1), because there is no real laksa. Laksa is only laksa when you have all the correct ingredients, cooked in a certain way, etc.
Similiarly, the creator of this dish named it laksa. It could jolly well have been named penang belacan white noodles. In fact, it is named assam noodle in Penang(?). The name conjour up a certain impression of the dish, but it is nothing, means nothing to people who doesnt know laksa. Hence the name is also empty (2).
Moving on, physicality (physical form) is empty. Each component in itself is empty. Because it is dependent on a lot of factors, and "made up" of four elements/traits. Each trait varies in degree/composition, making up the component. The component (physical aspect) in itself is empty because it is dependent on the traits.
As such, everything, all phenomenon is empty. And it cannot be separated from our mind. Our mind, the one which labels, which sees only the superficial (which we were taught), which sees the form but does not recognise it to be empty.
1) Physical things are empty
2) Name/Label is empty
3) Physicality is empty
In the previous Whatever-ness entries, I have already covered 1 and 2.
Ie, the bowl of laksa (physical thing) is empty (1), because there is no real laksa. Laksa is only laksa when you have all the correct ingredients, cooked in a certain way, etc.
Similiarly, the creator of this dish named it laksa. It could jolly well have been named penang belacan white noodles. In fact, it is named assam noodle in Penang(?). The name conjour up a certain impression of the dish, but it is nothing, means nothing to people who doesnt know laksa. Hence the name is also empty (2).
Moving on, physicality (physical form) is empty. Each component in itself is empty. Because it is dependent on a lot of factors, and "made up" of four elements/traits. Each trait varies in degree/composition, making up the component. The component (physical aspect) in itself is empty because it is dependent on the traits.
As such, everything, all phenomenon is empty. And it cannot be separated from our mind. Our mind, the one which labels, which sees only the superficial (which we were taught), which sees the form but does not recognise it to be empty.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Whatever-ness 2
To move on to the real whateverness message.
Hm, how should i start....There are already similiar and related entries before, such as the one on the talk of our True Nature, or emptiness, or dependent origination.
Let's take laksa as an example. (This is the example that Venerable was using).
Do you find laksa tasty?
Depending on individuals, the answer could be yes, no, maybe, or depending. But it is the same (assume) bowl of laksa, so why the differing opinions?
Of course I understand that different people has different taste buds, different conditions when they were eating the laksa. If that is the case, why do pple make the general sweeping statement that laksa is tasty, or on another level, that there is tastiness in laksa.
How can there be tastiness in laksa if it is dependent? Dependent on who is eating it, on who cooked it, on the ingredients that were used in it, etc.
It is more correct to say that laksa is tasty, dependent on some conditions. If it is dependent on conditions, ie dependent arising, than laksa itself, lacks the intrinsic quality of being inherently tasty. (Following so far?) Hence, laksa does not have tastiness. Laksa is empty of tastiness, of taste.
This is the phenomenon of emptiness that the Buddha tried to teach. And it can be applied to all phenomenon, hence "whateverness".
Taste can be empty. Even the "form" of laksa is empty.
Take a bowl of laksa. It is labelled laksa due to convention or naming. What exactly is laksa? Does "laksa" come from the noodle, the clams, the gravy, or from the belacan, the fishcake?
If you take those components away, is that still laksa? Take everything away, and there is no laksa. Take one component away, there is no laksa. Take the bowl away, there is no laksa. So is there laksa?
The form of laksa is empty, because without each of its components, the sum of its parts cannot be called laksa. Laksa is also dependent on its components and on conditions, also empty.
Emptiness is a phenomenon that we should know and understand. So as not to be attached to the empty bowl of laksa.
Hm, how should i start....There are already similiar and related entries before, such as the one on the talk of our True Nature, or emptiness, or dependent origination.
Let's take laksa as an example. (This is the example that Venerable was using).
Do you find laksa tasty?
Depending on individuals, the answer could be yes, no, maybe, or depending. But it is the same (assume) bowl of laksa, so why the differing opinions?
Of course I understand that different people has different taste buds, different conditions when they were eating the laksa. If that is the case, why do pple make the general sweeping statement that laksa is tasty, or on another level, that there is tastiness in laksa.
How can there be tastiness in laksa if it is dependent? Dependent on who is eating it, on who cooked it, on the ingredients that were used in it, etc.
It is more correct to say that laksa is tasty, dependent on some conditions. If it is dependent on conditions, ie dependent arising, than laksa itself, lacks the intrinsic quality of being inherently tasty. (Following so far?) Hence, laksa does not have tastiness. Laksa is empty of tastiness, of taste.
This is the phenomenon of emptiness that the Buddha tried to teach. And it can be applied to all phenomenon, hence "whateverness".
Taste can be empty. Even the "form" of laksa is empty.
Take a bowl of laksa. It is labelled laksa due to convention or naming. What exactly is laksa? Does "laksa" come from the noodle, the clams, the gravy, or from the belacan, the fishcake?
If you take those components away, is that still laksa? Take everything away, and there is no laksa. Take one component away, there is no laksa. Take the bowl away, there is no laksa. So is there laksa?
The form of laksa is empty, because without each of its components, the sum of its parts cannot be called laksa. Laksa is also dependent on its components and on conditions, also empty.
Emptiness is a phenomenon that we should know and understand. So as not to be attached to the empty bowl of laksa.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Whatever-ness 1
Of course there is no such word. And similiarly, everything that we know has the potential not to exist (ie it doesnt exist).
When I was in school, I was fond of asking why does 1+1=2. Why is it 2? And not 3 or 5 or 10?
Truly, can any mathematician answer my question? Roman numerals were developed ages ago, and adopted into practice. Who is to know or say if the founder/developer made a mistake, and it should be 135 instead of 123?
Maths, just like language, is only correct as far as the society which has adopted it sees it as right.
We are conditioned, limited and restricted by language and our knowledge. Just because there isn't a word to describe something, doesnt mean that it doesnt exist. We are only fooled into believing that it doesnt exist, because there is no word for it.
If that is the case, why do we still hold on to our pitiful language and lack of knowledge, yet think that we know or were taught everything. Arrogance should be unheard of, because there is no way you can know everything, and should you reach enlightenment like the Buddha, and have perfect wisdom, arrogance would never be present due to perfect compassion.
I just wanted to highlight that there are plenty that we have yet to comprehend from this wonderful universe of ours, and we should not think that we know all. Nor make wrong assumptions that what science or our political leaders say is true is the ultimate truth.
So, does whateverness exist? I would say yes.
When I was in school, I was fond of asking why does 1+1=2. Why is it 2? And not 3 or 5 or 10?
Truly, can any mathematician answer my question? Roman numerals were developed ages ago, and adopted into practice. Who is to know or say if the founder/developer made a mistake, and it should be 135 instead of 123?
Maths, just like language, is only correct as far as the society which has adopted it sees it as right.
We are conditioned, limited and restricted by language and our knowledge. Just because there isn't a word to describe something, doesnt mean that it doesnt exist. We are only fooled into believing that it doesnt exist, because there is no word for it.
If that is the case, why do we still hold on to our pitiful language and lack of knowledge, yet think that we know or were taught everything. Arrogance should be unheard of, because there is no way you can know everything, and should you reach enlightenment like the Buddha, and have perfect wisdom, arrogance would never be present due to perfect compassion.
I just wanted to highlight that there are plenty that we have yet to comprehend from this wonderful universe of ours, and we should not think that we know all. Nor make wrong assumptions that what science or our political leaders say is true is the ultimate truth.
So, does whateverness exist? I would say yes.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Low blood sugar or pressure
is an excuse!
Will be attending a retreat soon, and there is the option of taking 8 precepts. I am keen to try it out, but I start thinking and begin to fear. Fear all sorts of funny situations, and that I cant take it.
I am even thinking of hiding behind the fact that I am easily affected by low blood sugar. Is that an excuse, or a valid health concern? I am not so sure myself.
I suppose this is a sitution where I lack faith. Not only in myself, but also in the Triple Gems.
Guess that should be my answer. Trust and put my faith in the Triple Gems, that it would be a smooth retreat.
May the Triple Gems guide and bless your path towards enlightenment.
Will be attending a retreat soon, and there is the option of taking 8 precepts. I am keen to try it out, but I start thinking and begin to fear. Fear all sorts of funny situations, and that I cant take it.
I am even thinking of hiding behind the fact that I am easily affected by low blood sugar. Is that an excuse, or a valid health concern? I am not so sure myself.
I suppose this is a sitution where I lack faith. Not only in myself, but also in the Triple Gems.
Guess that should be my answer. Trust and put my faith in the Triple Gems, that it would be a smooth retreat.
May the Triple Gems guide and bless your path towards enlightenment.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Baby steps towards...
It could be towards a lot of things.
Was chatting with a friend on his spiritual pursuits, and he said it wasnt easy, and that there were more important things (by which I assume to be family and work).
In my point of view, there is always a choice, and while it might mean that there will be sacrifices, only you can decide if you are ready to make those sacrifices, and to evaluate its importance in your life.
But as mentioned above, baby steps can always be taken.
Afterall, Rome was not built in a day, and if we are serious about whatever it is that we want, we should put effort into it and do our best (even if in baby steps), to achieve our goals and aspirations.
Was chatting with a friend on his spiritual pursuits, and he said it wasnt easy, and that there were more important things (by which I assume to be family and work).
In my point of view, there is always a choice, and while it might mean that there will be sacrifices, only you can decide if you are ready to make those sacrifices, and to evaluate its importance in your life.
But as mentioned above, baby steps can always be taken.
Afterall, Rome was not built in a day, and if we are serious about whatever it is that we want, we should put effort into it and do our best (even if in baby steps), to achieve our goals and aspirations.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Buddhism begins with me
That was something that Venerable Hsing Yun had said.
And I totally agree with that statement.
It is often very easy to push responsibility of anything to others. To say that they should have done this or that.
Well, if we had taken up the responsibility from the start, the end goal would have materialised.
A similiar example is world peace. It is not enough to pay lip service and say that we want world peace, when deep in our hearts, we are still judging and discriminating against the others.
Buddha nature is in each of us. As such (or even if not), Buddhism should begin with each one of us.
How can we expect others to take action, or do the things we believe in, if we are not doing so ourselves?
And I totally agree with that statement.
It is often very easy to push responsibility of anything to others. To say that they should have done this or that.
Well, if we had taken up the responsibility from the start, the end goal would have materialised.
A similiar example is world peace. It is not enough to pay lip service and say that we want world peace, when deep in our hearts, we are still judging and discriminating against the others.
Buddha nature is in each of us. As such (or even if not), Buddhism should begin with each one of us.
How can we expect others to take action, or do the things we believe in, if we are not doing so ourselves?
Monday, November 30, 2009
I see... (Part 2)
... flashes of thoughts
If only
Nah, I don't see that, but I would love to.
Remember the Sin x graph. If the angle is such that the graph loops over and over in the fastest speed possible, and you apply that to your thought processes, what would you see?
Flashes of thoughts? The Sin x theory also applies to our thoughts. It arise and than falls.
If only I can focus on my meditation, and reach the stage where I only see flashes of thoughts.
That would be a constant reminder that even our thoughts are empty.
Empty of any real-ness. It flashes and disappears. Empty of any substance. Even the thought of it is empty.
If only
Nah, I don't see that, but I would love to.
Remember the Sin x graph. If the angle is such that the graph loops over and over in the fastest speed possible, and you apply that to your thought processes, what would you see?
Flashes of thoughts? The Sin x theory also applies to our thoughts. It arise and than falls.
If only I can focus on my meditation, and reach the stage where I only see flashes of thoughts.
That would be a constant reminder that even our thoughts are empty.
Empty of any real-ness. It flashes and disappears. Empty of any substance. Even the thought of it is empty.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
I see... (Part 1)
...not ghosts, but carbon atoms.
Let me explain. This is related to emptiness. (no doubt my coming entries will be about emptiness due to my class).
Look at things from a science perspective. [Actually, I have a similiar entry already].
Anyway, science taught us that we are all (not only humans, but all of Matter) made up of compounds, of molecules, of atoms. And the most common atom, the one in all matter, is the carbon atom.
In such a case, than if we were to drill down everything to its most basic element, that would be the carbon atom. Which makes us all the same. We are all only CARBON!
So when we look at things, at other beings, why do we still see the differences, the external appearances?
Why cant we only see the carbon atoms, and realise that we are all one and the same. That it doesnt matter if we are balding or not.
Let me explain. This is related to emptiness. (no doubt my coming entries will be about emptiness due to my class).
Look at things from a science perspective. [Actually, I have a similiar entry already].
Anyway, science taught us that we are all (not only humans, but all of Matter) made up of compounds, of molecules, of atoms. And the most common atom, the one in all matter, is the carbon atom.
In such a case, than if we were to drill down everything to its most basic element, that would be the carbon atom. Which makes us all the same. We are all only CARBON!
So when we look at things, at other beings, why do we still see the differences, the external appearances?
Why cant we only see the carbon atoms, and realise that we are all one and the same. That it doesnt matter if we are balding or not.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Climate change - A case of...
不听老人言，吃亏在眼前
Not sure if that is truly correct, but it sure sounds right.
If humans still do not see the need to act to reverse climate change. Even if the change is occuring at a very very slow speed, one day, it will still impact mankind.
While we might not be alive than (or so you think), our future generations will. So why cant we make the necessary changes, and respect all of life-kind, to ensure that life in the next few centuries will remain suitable for mankind.
It is a very selfish thought if our emphasis is only on making life better for ourselves in this lifetime.
Not sure if that is truly correct, but it sure sounds right.
If humans still do not see the need to act to reverse climate change. Even if the change is occuring at a very very slow speed, one day, it will still impact mankind.
While we might not be alive than (or so you think), our future generations will. So why cant we make the necessary changes, and respect all of life-kind, to ensure that life in the next few centuries will remain suitable for mankind.
It is a very selfish thought if our emphasis is only on making life better for ourselves in this lifetime.
Friday, November 27, 2009
空空 - Empty is as empty is....
Hm....where should I start....
Am currently taking a class on The Heart Sutra, and learning about emptiness.
And the Venerable wanted us to discuss and explain 空... (of course to the best of our ability after his teaching)
So just to share.
The way we use the word 空, does not do the word justice.
Because whenever we use 空, we use it in context. And that is not the real 空.
When you are the first in class, into the classroom, is the room 空?
Yes, the room is 空 of other classmates. But the room is not 空 of other physical objects, like the tables and chairs. So is the room 空?
空 is typically used in reference to an object, which in a sense, does not make it real 空. (Am I losing you?)
But there is a 空空 (which I have yet to learn about)....
Am currently taking a class on The Heart Sutra, and learning about emptiness.
And the Venerable wanted us to discuss and explain 空... (of course to the best of our ability after his teaching)
So just to share.
The way we use the word 空, does not do the word justice.
Because whenever we use 空, we use it in context. And that is not the real 空.
When you are the first in class, into the classroom, is the room 空?
Yes, the room is 空 of other classmates. But the room is not 空 of other physical objects, like the tables and chairs. So is the room 空?
空 is typically used in reference to an object, which in a sense, does not make it real 空. (Am I losing you?)
But there is a 空空 (which I have yet to learn about)....
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Sin x and phenomenon
Anyone still recall their secondary maths? And can draw the graph of Sin x?
If we look at the Sin x graph, we will realise that it can apply to life. To alot of happenings in our life.
Take for example, happiness.
When we get a promotion or a raise, our happiness level rises. But yet over time, the happiness that was derived from that promotion decreases, and our happiness level falls back to zero (or normal). Than time comes for our bonus. Happiness rises again. Bonus money is all spent, happiness falls. Good performance appraisal, happiness rises. Put down by the boss, happiness falls. Rises and falls, rises and falls.....
Isn't that just like a Sin x graph. If we were to scrutinise the Sin x graph, we will realise that all falls back to zero, to the "normalised" level.
In such a case, why do we bother to place emphasis on chasing that promotion, that raise, that perfect condo, etc.
It is just like the diminishing marginal returns. It all falls back to zero at the end of the day. As such, I do not see the need to be attached. Attached to what is happening in the external world. Attached to the material, to the physical.
In a similiar fashion, Sin x can be applied to all phenomenon.
All phenomenon rises and falls.
When you see the pen, the pen "exists", and the pen "phenomenon" rises. The pen is out of sight, no longer in use, the pen no longer "exists", the pen "phenomenon" falls. [ok, this is not a good example]
When we watch movies, do we realise that it is actually made up of frames. Frames by frames, which when moving in a fast speed, make it seem like there is movement. Each frame can be viewed as a phenomenon. It arises, and than falls. But because we are so used to the movement, we assume that it is always there. But that is not exactly the case. Once that frame has past, it has fallen away, and is gone.
And that is applicable to all of life, all the phenomenon. Everything rises and falls away.
So is there a need to be attached to anything?
I challenge you to find something that defies the rising and falling of phenomenon.
If we look at the Sin x graph, we will realise that it can apply to life. To alot of happenings in our life.
Take for example, happiness.
When we get a promotion or a raise, our happiness level rises. But yet over time, the happiness that was derived from that promotion decreases, and our happiness level falls back to zero (or normal). Than time comes for our bonus. Happiness rises again. Bonus money is all spent, happiness falls. Good performance appraisal, happiness rises. Put down by the boss, happiness falls. Rises and falls, rises and falls.....
Isn't that just like a Sin x graph. If we were to scrutinise the Sin x graph, we will realise that all falls back to zero, to the "normalised" level.
In such a case, why do we bother to place emphasis on chasing that promotion, that raise, that perfect condo, etc.
It is just like the diminishing marginal returns. It all falls back to zero at the end of the day. As such, I do not see the need to be attached. Attached to what is happening in the external world. Attached to the material, to the physical.
In a similiar fashion, Sin x can be applied to all phenomenon.
All phenomenon rises and falls.
When you see the pen, the pen "exists", and the pen "phenomenon" rises. The pen is out of sight, no longer in use, the pen no longer "exists", the pen "phenomenon" falls. [ok, this is not a good example]
When we watch movies, do we realise that it is actually made up of frames. Frames by frames, which when moving in a fast speed, make it seem like there is movement. Each frame can be viewed as a phenomenon. It arises, and than falls. But because we are so used to the movement, we assume that it is always there. But that is not exactly the case. Once that frame has past, it has fallen away, and is gone.
And that is applicable to all of life, all the phenomenon. Everything rises and falls away.
So is there a need to be attached to anything?
I challenge you to find something that defies the rising and falling of phenomenon.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
A whole life of regrets
Is that the kind of life you want to lead?
Well, like i wrote in "I wasted one year of my time", it does seem like a whole life of regret.
But honestly, having regrets is a waste of time, and a waste of energy. It is considered a negative emotional state.
Yet, if a mistake has been made, what or how should one feel or do?
I have learnt that it is important to admit your mistake, promise (if not to the other person, than to yourself) never to do it again, and of course keep that promise. While it is "necessary" to feel regret in the initial stages, so that one may move on to the stage of never again doing it, holding onto regrets is not healthy nor needed.
Regrets should energise you to move on and do better the next time. Take regret and transform it into something more positive!
Well, like i wrote in "I wasted one year of my time", it does seem like a whole life of regret.
But honestly, having regrets is a waste of time, and a waste of energy. It is considered a negative emotional state.
Yet, if a mistake has been made, what or how should one feel or do?
I have learnt that it is important to admit your mistake, promise (if not to the other person, than to yourself) never to do it again, and of course keep that promise. While it is "necessary" to feel regret in the initial stages, so that one may move on to the stage of never again doing it, holding onto regrets is not healthy nor needed.
Regrets should energise you to move on and do better the next time. Take regret and transform it into something more positive!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
百度人
Hm...was chatting with a friend on her future plans. And she shared that she wanted to be a 百度人.
Let me define what she meant by a 百度人. A person who helps other sentient beings [hundreds, if not thousands of them 百] cross (度) over to the other shore, the shore of liberation.
Of course, at our level, we can only share our basic knowledge and experience. But that is "sufficient", coz we have tried to share to the best of our ability. It is more important that we have this sort of motivation, than the actual extent/level of sharing.
And of course, I too seek to be a 百度人!
Let me define what she meant by a 百度人. A person who helps other sentient beings [hundreds, if not thousands of them 百] cross (度) over to the other shore, the shore of liberation.
Of course, at our level, we can only share our basic knowledge and experience. But that is "sufficient", coz we have tried to share to the best of our ability. It is more important that we have this sort of motivation, than the actual extent/level of sharing.
And of course, I too seek to be a 百度人!
Monday, November 23, 2009
I have wasted one year of my time...
...or should it be "I have wasted 29 years of my time?
Which title would attract you to read it more?
Both statements are equally true. Which also means it is equally upsetting (if I want to feel that emotion....)
Well, I left my well paid job in Nov/Dec 2008, to pursue my own interest and focus on my Buddhism practices and building up Buddhism knowledge.
I did and did not do a lot of things at that time. Had the time and flexibility to attend more retreats and practice sessions, took up Buddhism classes, started to volunteer again...
Yet (it is only now that I realised) I did not use my time fruitfully. I wasted time on the externalities, on just thinking how nice it is that i have more time to myself and my practice. Time was wasted just thinking and planning, and NOT doing, NOT PRACTICING.
Even worst, I had been approaching things from the wrong motivation. The lack of basic Buddhism foundation and understanding was not truly addressed. I was approaching it from a chanting angle and not an understand and realise angle. I was not disciplined enough to do my daily practices....the list can go on.
Well, I suppose it is not too late to learn the truth now.
In a similiar vein, I can say that my past 29 years were all lived in vain. What have I been doing all those years? Looking back, I seem to see only the activities of the three poisons, see only the negative emotions, see the arising and falling of phenomenon. See the strong attachment to the things which are empty.
I thank the Buddhadharma for letting me have that insight, for bringing the right teachers along, for letting me learn.
While in some sense time itself is also empty, I do not intend to waste anymore time.
May you too learn to see beyond, and live life in this present moment.
Amituofo
Which title would attract you to read it more?
Both statements are equally true. Which also means it is equally upsetting (if I want to feel that emotion....)
Well, I left my well paid job in Nov/Dec 2008, to pursue my own interest and focus on my Buddhism practices and building up Buddhism knowledge.
I did and did not do a lot of things at that time. Had the time and flexibility to attend more retreats and practice sessions, took up Buddhism classes, started to volunteer again...
Yet (it is only now that I realised) I did not use my time fruitfully. I wasted time on the externalities, on just thinking how nice it is that i have more time to myself and my practice. Time was wasted just thinking and planning, and NOT doing, NOT PRACTICING.
Even worst, I had been approaching things from the wrong motivation. The lack of basic Buddhism foundation and understanding was not truly addressed. I was approaching it from a chanting angle and not an understand and realise angle. I was not disciplined enough to do my daily practices....the list can go on.
Well, I suppose it is not too late to learn the truth now.
In a similiar vein, I can say that my past 29 years were all lived in vain. What have I been doing all those years? Looking back, I seem to see only the activities of the three poisons, see only the negative emotions, see the arising and falling of phenomenon. See the strong attachment to the things which are empty.
I thank the Buddhadharma for letting me have that insight, for bringing the right teachers along, for letting me learn.
While in some sense time itself is also empty, I do not intend to waste anymore time.
May you too learn to see beyond, and live life in this present moment.
Amituofo
Sunday, November 22, 2009
I could only say Thank You
I had sort of an interesting experience the other day at JB's Fo Guang Shan. Have been going down for their group practice on sat nights, in order to do some prayer on each week's 7th day for my mother-in-law (who had passed on).
After the practice has ended, I stayed back, in order to do some prayer and dedication on my own. Typically I would have sort of thought of what to say, etc. If not, something would come to mind. Afterall, there is always plenty to ask for or seek guidance on.
So.......there I was, palms together, standing in front of the Buddha statues.
And the first and only thought that came to my mind was. Thank You!
I was speechless and "thoughtless" besides that.
And I am very happy and grateful for that moment.
For it made/let me see that the only important thing in life, is to be grateful, and that i already have all that i need.
That the feelings of gratitude can transcend all thoughts and emotions, the need for action and reaction.
I just want to say a BIG THANK YOU!
For everything in my life, all the teachers that I have met, all the friends that have been by my side...and for everything else. thank you. Amituofo.
After the practice has ended, I stayed back, in order to do some prayer and dedication on my own. Typically I would have sort of thought of what to say, etc. If not, something would come to mind. Afterall, there is always plenty to ask for or seek guidance on.
So.......there I was, palms together, standing in front of the Buddha statues.
And the first and only thought that came to my mind was. Thank You!
I was speechless and "thoughtless" besides that.
And I am very happy and grateful for that moment.
For it made/let me see that the only important thing in life, is to be grateful, and that i already have all that i need.
That the feelings of gratitude can transcend all thoughts and emotions, the need for action and reaction.
I just want to say a BIG THANK YOU!
For everything in my life, all the teachers that I have met, all the friends that have been by my side...and for everything else. thank you. Amituofo.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Our teachers taught us right
to write notes. to take down notes. to keep notes.
why is that the case?
apparently (and i agree to this point of view) in the process of noting down things (that your teacher is trying to teach), even if you fail to comprehend it at that moment in time, the knowledge's imprint will be left on your consciousness.
and someday, some time, in the future, be it 3 years' time, or 300 years' time, some event or smtg will trigger that imprint, and you will have the realisations that your teacher is trying to teach!
why is that the case?
apparently (and i agree to this point of view) in the process of noting down things (that your teacher is trying to teach), even if you fail to comprehend it at that moment in time, the knowledge's imprint will be left on your consciousness.
and someday, some time, in the future, be it 3 years' time, or 300 years' time, some event or smtg will trigger that imprint, and you will have the realisations that your teacher is trying to teach!
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Time flies and Life is impermanent
In one of my earlier entries, i wrote that one of my "favourite" patient has passed on.
Just last week, I received an email about his 49th day (after passing on), where they will be having prayers, etc.
I was shocked at reading that email. Not that I didnt know he died, or anything like that. But the fact that the time flew by without me really noticing it. I was thinking "that's fast".
And that is how life often is. Moments flashes by without us being in that moment. And it is only in retrospect that we are awaken to that fact. That is truly a waste of time, on both ends.
"Life is impermanent" is a fact that cannot be changed. So why do we still linger on and put our attention either into the future or the past....
活在当下!
Just last week, I received an email about his 49th day (after passing on), where they will be having prayers, etc.
I was shocked at reading that email. Not that I didnt know he died, or anything like that. But the fact that the time flew by without me really noticing it. I was thinking "that's fast".
And that is how life often is. Moments flashes by without us being in that moment. And it is only in retrospect that we are awaken to that fact. That is truly a waste of time, on both ends.
"Life is impermanent" is a fact that cannot be changed. So why do we still linger on and put our attention either into the future or the past....
活在当下!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
I have so much anger
And I am not even sure where it originates from.
And is it an irony that it is all anger at myself?
At e fact that I m still so deluded, that I m still hiding myself in shows and stories.
That I realise the importance of practice but fail to find joy in it.
Or have I yet to fully comprehend. That would make more sense.
Is it right to be angry in this instance?
But anger is still a mental defilement. It is due to attachment, due to expectations.
Even simple dislike is a form of aversion.
We should strive for equanimity. Even indifference is unacceptable. For we are "one big family".
What should I do with my anger?
And is it an irony that it is all anger at myself?
At e fact that I m still so deluded, that I m still hiding myself in shows and stories.
That I realise the importance of practice but fail to find joy in it.
Or have I yet to fully comprehend. That would make more sense.
Is it right to be angry in this instance?
But anger is still a mental defilement. It is due to attachment, due to expectations.
Even simple dislike is a form of aversion.
We should strive for equanimity. Even indifference is unacceptable. For we are "one big family".
What should I do with my anger?
Monday, November 16, 2009
I told you so
Cause and effect
That which we tend to label as karma.
Whatever seed you plant, whichever fruit you will get.
And once you start to observe happenings in your life, u will realise that to be the absolute truth.
If you like me, are e kind that dislikes medicine and doctors, and often put off seeing e doc, than whose fault will it be when one day u discover you have a serious illness in the late stages, something which could have easily been nipped in the bud.
Every often, our suffering is like that.
We planted the seeds without really being aware of it, and yet is shocked and surprised when it bears fruit.
If Buddha was not wise and compassionate, he would have said, I told you so.
Even scientist teaches action & reaction...
Be mindful of all your actions less you suffer, or worst, cause people around you to suffer because they care!
That which we tend to label as karma.
Whatever seed you plant, whichever fruit you will get.
And once you start to observe happenings in your life, u will realise that to be the absolute truth.
If you like me, are e kind that dislikes medicine and doctors, and often put off seeing e doc, than whose fault will it be when one day u discover you have a serious illness in the late stages, something which could have easily been nipped in the bud.
Every often, our suffering is like that.
We planted the seeds without really being aware of it, and yet is shocked and surprised when it bears fruit.
If Buddha was not wise and compassionate, he would have said, I told you so.
Even scientist teaches action & reaction...
Be mindful of all your actions less you suffer, or worst, cause people around you to suffer because they care!
Saturday, November 14, 2009
What sort of fear is this?
I look at others and I am very frighten.
Looking at their suffering, their current situation, their actions and behavior.
Even in their suffering, in their negative karma ripening, they are still continuing to plant negative seeds thru their new actions.
If I were to list down their past and current deeds and actions, their constant mindframe, I really shudder to think where their next rebirth will be.
Doing evil is not only killing or stealing. Any form of action, behavior or even thoughts can be considered either positive and negative.
Take a miserly person for instance. Being overly concerned about money their whole lives, not sharing their wealth or possessions. Not even a kind word or smile. Where would such a person end up after this lifetime is over?
I fear for people like that.
Looking at their suffering, their current situation, their actions and behavior.
Even in their suffering, in their negative karma ripening, they are still continuing to plant negative seeds thru their new actions.
If I were to list down their past and current deeds and actions, their constant mindframe, I really shudder to think where their next rebirth will be.
Doing evil is not only killing or stealing. Any form of action, behavior or even thoughts can be considered either positive and negative.
Take a miserly person for instance. Being overly concerned about money their whole lives, not sharing their wealth or possessions. Not even a kind word or smile. Where would such a person end up after this lifetime is over?
I fear for people like that.
Friday, November 6, 2009
That's why I cant be a Buddha
That's what my mom said to me yesterday...
After dinner, she was passing me things to handle, and we were sitting on the floor.
I noticed a bug crawling along her leg and tried to sweep it off using a brochure. The bug ended on the floor....
But that too, was the end of it's life.
Wham! My mom squashed it by reflex.
Well, I must have had a sad or "hey" look on my face. That was when she gave me her offhanded quote:
"That's why I cant be a Buddha".
I was shell shocked at the moment, and couldnt think of anything to reply her with.
What could I have said? Plenty I supposed, but what was the right thing to say? I am still uncertain.
Could that really be why people are so far from enlightenment? That they do not think it is possible for them to ever one day attain Buddhahood?
But that is so far from the truth.
I fear I have not been a good enough daughter. IF I was, I would have told her that it is still and always possible to become a Buddha. I have not done my duty for my parents in this aspect, and it would be/is one of my biggest regret of my life.
Do not follow my example. Be ready to reply that, "No, everyone can become a Buddha!"
And be ever ready to share the Dharma with all who are ready to listen. Amituofo
After dinner, she was passing me things to handle, and we were sitting on the floor.
I noticed a bug crawling along her leg and tried to sweep it off using a brochure. The bug ended on the floor....
But that too, was the end of it's life.
Wham! My mom squashed it by reflex.
Well, I must have had a sad or "hey" look on my face. That was when she gave me her offhanded quote:
"That's why I cant be a Buddha".
I was shell shocked at the moment, and couldnt think of anything to reply her with.
What could I have said? Plenty I supposed, but what was the right thing to say? I am still uncertain.
Could that really be why people are so far from enlightenment? That they do not think it is possible for them to ever one day attain Buddhahood?
But that is so far from the truth.
I fear I have not been a good enough daughter. IF I was, I would have told her that it is still and always possible to become a Buddha. I have not done my duty for my parents in this aspect, and it would be/is one of my biggest regret of my life.
Do not follow my example. Be ready to reply that, "No, everyone can become a Buddha!"
And be ever ready to share the Dharma with all who are ready to listen. Amituofo
Thursday, November 5, 2009
My favourite retreat centre
Do you have a retreat centre that you go to all the time?
Or maybe you favour a certain buddhist centre because of the familiarity or the people, etc.
Ask me ask me.
This tot isnt original, but my favourite retreat centre is Amitabha Buddha's Pureland.
Not that I have been there before, but the stories that I have heard all proclaim its glory and majesty.
And I firmly believe that I can really practice there...
Some time back, I have always viewed Pureland as my "home". The place where I truly belong, coz it doesnt feel quite right here, nor am i happy here.
But a Venerable recently shared that we should view Pureland as a Retreat Centre. Which is rightfully so, because afterall, it is still within Samsara. Just that it is a more conducive place for us to practice.
so my next retreat destination will be Pureland. And I will remain in retreat until I have attain some realisations and am ready to benefit sentient beings.
Or maybe you favour a certain buddhist centre because of the familiarity or the people, etc.
Ask me ask me.
This tot isnt original, but my favourite retreat centre is Amitabha Buddha's Pureland.
Not that I have been there before, but the stories that I have heard all proclaim its glory and majesty.
And I firmly believe that I can really practice there...
Some time back, I have always viewed Pureland as my "home". The place where I truly belong, coz it doesnt feel quite right here, nor am i happy here.
But a Venerable recently shared that we should view Pureland as a Retreat Centre. Which is rightfully so, because afterall, it is still within Samsara. Just that it is a more conducive place for us to practice.
so my next retreat destination will be Pureland. And I will remain in retreat until I have attain some realisations and am ready to benefit sentient beings.
I am attached to 3 words...
Lim Seow Yuin or more accurately 林曉昀
I would like to think otherwise, but no, I am still attached to me, to my name, as an identity for myself.
I might not seem like an egoistic person, but I do have a BIG EGO.
Maybe other people do too, but it affects me, because I know the importance of being humble, or trying to realise non-self, of seeing dependent origination.
Well, a pat on my back for at least seeing that I have an ego and need to work on it. lol
After so long, the question of Who am I is still relevant to me.
It shouldnt be. Not if I had fully realised emptiness and non-self.
加油林曉昀 ！
The irony...
I would like to think otherwise, but no, I am still attached to me, to my name, as an identity for myself.
I might not seem like an egoistic person, but I do have a BIG EGO.
Maybe other people do too, but it affects me, because I know the importance of being humble, or trying to realise non-self, of seeing dependent origination.
Well, a pat on my back for at least seeing that I have an ego and need to work on it. lol
After so long, the question of Who am I is still relevant to me.
It shouldnt be. Not if I had fully realised emptiness and non-self.
加油林曉昀 ！
The irony...
When we look inward too much...
... we become too detached to the suffering of the world out there
That sounds like me.
Looking inward seems often about the self, and you gradually forget that you live in this world, and that you still need to find a balance in the here and now.
I had a recent incident which I am still trying to struggle to learn from and comprehend. A lesson of detachment and compassion.
My mother-in-law was hospitalised. And while I am concerned and all, I am at some point detached from the happenings.
Is it simply because she is not my mom,
or because I am too detached,
or because I have seen suffering and know that there is no way out?
But yet, karma is not deterministic nor fatalistic.
There were many factors in play, and I find that I lack compassion.
I see her suffering and think that that is her due. It might be, but that doesnt mean that nothing can be done, or worst, that i should think that "she deserves it".
At some level, I understand that she is suffering due to her past karma and all. I am concerned but I do not find compassion deep in my heart. Alas, the power of the deluded mind.
That sounds like me.
Looking inward seems often about the self, and you gradually forget that you live in this world, and that you still need to find a balance in the here and now.
I had a recent incident which I am still trying to struggle to learn from and comprehend. A lesson of detachment and compassion.
My mother-in-law was hospitalised. And while I am concerned and all, I am at some point detached from the happenings.
Is it simply because she is not my mom,
or because I am too detached,
or because I have seen suffering and know that there is no way out?
But yet, karma is not deterministic nor fatalistic.
There were many factors in play, and I find that I lack compassion.
I see her suffering and think that that is her due. It might be, but that doesnt mean that nothing can be done, or worst, that i should think that "she deserves it".
At some level, I understand that she is suffering due to her past karma and all. I am concerned but I do not find compassion deep in my heart. Alas, the power of the deluded mind.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I wish
I wish...
If there is really a wish that I could wish for, I would wish that I have no wishes.
Than I would be contented, for that is the greatest happiness
If there is really a wish that I could wish for, I would wish that I have no wishes.
Than I would be contented, for that is the greatest happiness
Monday, November 2, 2009
Economics of happiness
This is probably not a new topic.
In econs, we learn of the diminishing margin of utility, ie, the more you eat something, the less you enjoy it over that same period of time. I mean, you can get really sick from eating all the ice cream in the world at one shot, even if it is your fav food.
And that is what happiness (as defined by us) is all about.
Because we fail to see the changes in each passing moment, we assume things to be constant, and assume that once we get something, we will be happy.
But is that really the case. Look at decreasing marginal utility. The enjoyment will decrease. For sure!
So when will we ever be truly happy?
In econs, we learn of the diminishing margin of utility, ie, the more you eat something, the less you enjoy it over that same period of time. I mean, you can get really sick from eating all the ice cream in the world at one shot, even if it is your fav food.
And that is what happiness (as defined by us) is all about.
Because we fail to see the changes in each passing moment, we assume things to be constant, and assume that once we get something, we will be happy.
But is that really the case. Look at decreasing marginal utility. The enjoyment will decrease. For sure!
So when will we ever be truly happy?
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Month of birth and death
That's what the month of October felt like for me.
1. Mother-in-law was hospitalised
2. My birthday
3. Execution of Tibetans
4. Death of a friend's dad
Was it a good month? I would have to say YES
Simply because there was so much lessons learnt and to be learnt
What is birth and what is death.
If you really think about it, it is simply a phase that we all have to go thru.
As Thich Nhat Hanh wrote, it should not be death day, but a day of continuation.
For we all start off life with the same premise. That we will die at some point of time. So what is there to fear.
For me, the greatest suffering in seeing my loved ones hospitalised and/or waiting for death, is not the fact that they will die. But the fact that I do not have the ability to help them thru.
To help them not fear death
To help them face death and understand that it is a continuation
To help them repent of their past misdeeds so that they may leave without regret and anger or sadness
To assist them to a pure/better rebirth
To help them develop understanding of the reality of life
such is the shortcoming of human beings
1. Mother-in-law was hospitalised
2. My birthday
3. Execution of Tibetans
4. Death of a friend's dad
Was it a good month? I would have to say YES
Simply because there was so much lessons learnt and to be learnt
What is birth and what is death.
If you really think about it, it is simply a phase that we all have to go thru.
As Thich Nhat Hanh wrote, it should not be death day, but a day of continuation.
For we all start off life with the same premise. That we will die at some point of time. So what is there to fear.
For me, the greatest suffering in seeing my loved ones hospitalised and/or waiting for death, is not the fact that they will die. But the fact that I do not have the ability to help them thru.
To help them not fear death
To help them face death and understand that it is a continuation
To help them repent of their past misdeeds so that they may leave without regret and anger or sadness
To assist them to a pure/better rebirth
To help them develop understanding of the reality of life
such is the shortcoming of human beings
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Dharamsala 2009: The Four Noble Truths
This is going to be a long long entry. Or maybe not.
Well, for those who are in the know, I was supposed to attend His Holiness Dalai Lama's Teaching Tour in Dharamsala. To cut the long story short, I did go, but I didnt get the chance to see him. There was a family emergency and we flew home on the same day that the teaching was starting.
So....was it our karma? Or as another friend (new age) suggested, that I didnt believe nor give strong enough intent that I may see him?
I suppose both was possible, but I am inclined to think that it was my/our karma.
Yet before I left SG, I already had the fear/feeling that I won't meet him. So is this intuition, or self fulfilling prophecy?
It's anyone's guess.
The topic of the teachings was "The Four Noble Truths"....
And honestly, our experience of the family emergency truly reflect the lesson that the four Noble Truths were trying to teach.
1. There is Suffering
- The fear of losing a loved one
- Our daily lives can be a form of suffering due to our delusion and ignorance
- The pain and unhappiness of things not loved nor wanted
2. Cause of suffering
- The attachment towards your loved one brings about your suffering as you fear that they will no longer be in your life
- The deluded mind thinking that you have an identity, that things should go your way
- The ignorance of the ultimate nature of reality leads us to perceive things in the conventional (but mistaken) way that we were taught
3. End of suffering
- Well, it can "end", but how many of us can reach that level at our current stage
- If we truly understood the nature of impermanence, of our cyclic existence, than there is realisation, and with that, comes the understanding of death, and hence the lack of fear towards death
- Or seeing dependent origination, that our life depends on so many others, we cease to see the distinction between us and others, and thus the need for expectations or to compete, etc.
4. Path to the cessation of suffering
- And that, is the Noble Eight fold path
- Most important is Right Understanding/View: of the true nature of reality, of karma, of the Four Noble Truths, of emptiness, of reunciation, of compassion, of wisdom....
Well, for those who are in the know, I was supposed to attend His Holiness Dalai Lama's Teaching Tour in Dharamsala. To cut the long story short, I did go, but I didnt get the chance to see him. There was a family emergency and we flew home on the same day that the teaching was starting.
So....was it our karma? Or as another friend (new age) suggested, that I didnt believe nor give strong enough intent that I may see him?
I suppose both was possible, but I am inclined to think that it was my/our karma.
Yet before I left SG, I already had the fear/feeling that I won't meet him. So is this intuition, or self fulfilling prophecy?
It's anyone's guess.
The topic of the teachings was "The Four Noble Truths"....
And honestly, our experience of the family emergency truly reflect the lesson that the four Noble Truths were trying to teach.
1. There is Suffering
- The fear of losing a loved one
- Our daily lives can be a form of suffering due to our delusion and ignorance
- The pain and unhappiness of things not loved nor wanted
2. Cause of suffering
- The attachment towards your loved one brings about your suffering as you fear that they will no longer be in your life
- The deluded mind thinking that you have an identity, that things should go your way
- The ignorance of the ultimate nature of reality leads us to perceive things in the conventional (but mistaken) way that we were taught
3. End of suffering
- Well, it can "end", but how many of us can reach that level at our current stage
- If we truly understood the nature of impermanence, of our cyclic existence, than there is realisation, and with that, comes the understanding of death, and hence the lack of fear towards death
- Or seeing dependent origination, that our life depends on so many others, we cease to see the distinction between us and others, and thus the need for expectations or to compete, etc.
4. Path to the cessation of suffering
- And that, is the Noble Eight fold path
- Most important is Right Understanding/View: of the true nature of reality, of karma, of the Four Noble Truths, of emptiness, of reunciation, of compassion, of wisdom....
Saturday, October 24, 2009
My birthday wish for 2009
I did sort of make a wish afterall. But it was more of an aspiration.
On recollection, I cant remember what it was that i really said, but I do know the gist of it.
May I attain enlightenment for the benefit of all sentient beings.
May I live my life in accordance of my motivation of full enlightenment for the benefit of all sentient beings.
May I continue on my path towards enlightenment, with the right conditions to learn and realise the truth.
May I be able to share the Dharma with compassion and wisdom
Amituofo
On recollection, I cant remember what it was that i really said, but I do know the gist of it.
May I attain enlightenment for the benefit of all sentient beings.
May I live my life in accordance of my motivation of full enlightenment for the benefit of all sentient beings.
May I continue on my path towards enlightenment, with the right conditions to learn and realise the truth.
May I be able to share the Dharma with compassion and wisdom
Amituofo
Another crashing (Aug)
2009 is indeed a year of transformation for me.
And truly, with only three quarters thru, my so called life has already crashed twice. And while I managed to pull thru when e house of cards fell, I m not so certain this time round, because this "attack" was all rounded and struck at e most foundamental, which was obviously missing.
It made me question all that I believed in, all that I thought I knew, all that I was trying to achieve. Not that e theory or logic was faulty. It was my interpretation and subsequent actions that might have been misguided. And herein lies e suffering. I tot I was right, but now I might not be, and I don't quite know how to adjust and adapt to e "changes".
I m too tied and attached to my old understanding, to my ego that I was right and am better than e rest. How does one humble e self and relearn all e fundamentals? I'm struggling with e process and do not see e way out. Yes I m addicted to results, to expectations, to a structure. I m going to faint.
Dukkha is all so present in our everyday life, and it is often amplified by our sense of self, by our perspectives, by our selfishness.
Have I truly learnt e four noble truths? I think not. There is learning and there is LEARNING. My foundations are based on e superficial, on e logical. Not from experience or real understanding. It was never internalized, never fully grasped. Hence I often fail to do it RIGHT.
How than can I move on from here? I m still waiting for an answer and trying to figure it out. I was given very sound advice (which I m taking) which is to seek guidance and help from e Buddha. At this point, that is all that I can manage with a clear mind. Amituofo
Saturday, October 17, 2009
When The Going Gets Tough, The Tough Takes Refuge In The Triple Gem II
My thoughts on taking refuge.
It is interesting to note that parallels can be drawn between the Buddhism Taking Refuge, and the strong faith of other religions in their gods.
Buddhists take refuge in the Buddha, Dharma & Sangha, believing that the Triple Gems will guide and protect them. Similiarly, other religions do the "same", and trust that their gods will take good care of them, or answer their prayers.
So is there a distinction?
When we take refuge in the Triple Gems (in the Buddha), we are not worshipping any particular Buddha.
We are paying our respect to the enlightened one, the awakened state that the Buddhas are in.
The stage of liberation that we should all set out to reach. It serves to also remind us of the suffering that we may penetrate and see thru when we are liberated.
If the Buddha wanted us to question his teachings, why is faith necessary? Or does the faith come after understanding and accepting the Dharma?
It is interesting to note that parallels can be drawn between the Buddhism Taking Refuge, and the strong faith of other religions in their gods.
Buddhists take refuge in the Buddha, Dharma & Sangha, believing that the Triple Gems will guide and protect them. Similiarly, other religions do the "same", and trust that their gods will take good care of them, or answer their prayers.
So is there a distinction?
When we take refuge in the Triple Gems (in the Buddha), we are not worshipping any particular Buddha.
We are paying our respect to the enlightened one, the awakened state that the Buddhas are in.
The stage of liberation that we should all set out to reach. It serves to also remind us of the suffering that we may penetrate and see thru when we are liberated.
If the Buddha wanted us to question his teachings, why is faith necessary? Or does the faith come after understanding and accepting the Dharma?
No regrets
Now that I am "seeing" death, I find (true at my current mind state) that I have no regrets and can leave anytime.
Of course I have yet to set my will and leave funeral instructions. Been meaning to get down to it. But e fact that I have yet does suggest that I have yet to fully comprehend impermanence.
I still seem to think that I have more time. So will I have regrets or not when I die?
It's anyone's guess.
Of course I have yet to set my will and leave funeral instructions. Been meaning to get down to it. But e fact that I have yet does suggest that I have yet to fully comprehend impermanence.
I still seem to think that I have more time. So will I have regrets or not when I die?
It's anyone's guess.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Universal response
Just wanted to share some incidents that have happened recently. Tho the theory is nothing new to me.
But it never fails to amaze me when syncronicity strikes.
I have been facing issues surrounding death recently, and no surprises, e universe hears and replies.
Books, materials, friends, have all came forth, to share, to encourage, to advise.
Thank you all and e universe for providing support and more importantly love and compassion into my life!
But it never fails to amaze me when syncronicity strikes.
I have been facing issues surrounding death recently, and no surprises, e universe hears and replies.
Books, materials, friends, have all came forth, to share, to encourage, to advise.
Thank you all and e universe for providing support and more importantly love and compassion into my life!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Consciouness and fish
Attended a talk about consciousness.
The speaker shared about consciousness and drew a conclusion (based on his research) that fish does not have consciousness.
Well, from a scientific viewpoint, if their nerve circuitary is vastly different from humans, I can understand where that came from. Yet I find it hard to accept that they do not suffer when they are killed simply because they do not have e capacity to feel pain.
Yes, they might not feel pain but does that make them any less? Is it really conclusive that they do not have consciousness? Maybe their level of consciousness is underdeveloped; who's to know. Or maybe their equivalent of consciousness is something totally different.
I find it unfair to comment (based on level of consciouness) that fish can be eaten vs other more social animals like pigs.
In all fairness, e speaker did say that he is vegetarian and doesn't eat fish.
Just fyi fish is meat too. White meat.
And whether or not fish has consciousness, i still maintain that it is cruel to eat them.
Actually, there is no real end to this argument, because one has to draw the line somewhere, as we still need sustenance to survive. And no matter what we eat, there is still life (to different degrees and nature)!
The speaker shared about consciousness and drew a conclusion (based on his research) that fish does not have consciousness.
Well, from a scientific viewpoint, if their nerve circuitary is vastly different from humans, I can understand where that came from. Yet I find it hard to accept that they do not suffer when they are killed simply because they do not have e capacity to feel pain.
Yes, they might not feel pain but does that make them any less? Is it really conclusive that they do not have consciousness? Maybe their level of consciousness is underdeveloped; who's to know. Or maybe their equivalent of consciousness is something totally different.
I find it unfair to comment (based on level of consciouness) that fish can be eaten vs other more social animals like pigs.
In all fairness, e speaker did say that he is vegetarian and doesn't eat fish.
Just fyi fish is meat too. White meat.
And whether or not fish has consciousness, i still maintain that it is cruel to eat them.
Actually, there is no real end to this argument, because one has to draw the line somewhere, as we still need sustenance to survive. And no matter what we eat, there is still life (to different degrees and nature)!
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
A peaceful mind is one that knows suffering
Is that a weird statement?
Those who really comprehend will fully appreciate it.
Peace and suffering are not mutually exclusive. In fact, they go hand in hand and could even be said of as a pair.
Peace typically comes after suffering; suffering leads to peace.
Well, it only makes sense that u can find peace at e end of suffering. And seeing thru suffering will bring u peace.
Still confused? Look for suffering to learn this hard lesson.
Those who really comprehend will fully appreciate it.
Peace and suffering are not mutually exclusive. In fact, they go hand in hand and could even be said of as a pair.
Peace typically comes after suffering; suffering leads to peace.
Well, it only makes sense that u can find peace at e end of suffering. And seeing thru suffering will bring u peace.
Still confused? Look for suffering to learn this hard lesson.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Tools of trade
I asked this question twice to my spiritual senior.
How does one balance between new age tools/ teachings and Buddhism?
Well, the fact that I had to ask twice suggests the fact that I had yet to balance or internalize the lesson.
It really depends on your perspective, but as a general rule, tools are just tools, and we should not get/ be overly attached to it or its outcome. It is a good to have or use, but should never become the whole or all of our lives.
We must be mindful and not be caught up with the results of our "tools of trade".
How does one balance between new age tools/ teachings and Buddhism?
Well, the fact that I had to ask twice suggests the fact that I had yet to balance or internalize the lesson.
It really depends on your perspective, but as a general rule, tools are just tools, and we should not get/ be overly attached to it or its outcome. It is a good to have or use, but should never become the whole or all of our lives.
We must be mindful and not be caught up with the results of our "tools of trade".
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Another test of fire
Well there are two actually.
The first being the trip to India for HHDL's teaching.
Certain events have happened such that I am concerned I won't be able to go. But I will stay positive and seek divine guidance, create more merits and the cause to be there.
While I seek wisdom, now is not the best time for that long awaited tooth to pop out. My gums are slightly swollen and eating a little difficult. But I will persist. Short of death or anything that major, nothing will keep me from HHDL's door. But I do have to watch out for over attachment to the trip.
The second is the more important and major test. There had been hospitalization in e family, and everyone is fearful of the test results.
Personally I have a lot of views on this, but let me erase all that and focus on " this is suffering". To view it and accept it as suffering, to release attachment to our loved ones, to understand e nature of death and of impermanence.
Honestly there is a lot of lessons to be learnt from death. And as a spiritual friend pointed out to me, now is the best time to test my Dharma knowledge and understanding, to see what I can put into action, to apply my understanding of Buddhism philosophy.
Am I ready? There is not much I can do except rise up to e occassion, and pray for divine intervention
The first being the trip to India for HHDL's teaching.
Certain events have happened such that I am concerned I won't be able to go. But I will stay positive and seek divine guidance, create more merits and the cause to be there.
While I seek wisdom, now is not the best time for that long awaited tooth to pop out. My gums are slightly swollen and eating a little difficult. But I will persist. Short of death or anything that major, nothing will keep me from HHDL's door. But I do have to watch out for over attachment to the trip.
The second is the more important and major test. There had been hospitalization in e family, and everyone is fearful of the test results.
Personally I have a lot of views on this, but let me erase all that and focus on " this is suffering". To view it and accept it as suffering, to release attachment to our loved ones, to understand e nature of death and of impermanence.
Honestly there is a lot of lessons to be learnt from death. And as a spiritual friend pointed out to me, now is the best time to test my Dharma knowledge and understanding, to see what I can put into action, to apply my understanding of Buddhism philosophy.
Am I ready? There is not much I can do except rise up to e occassion, and pray for divine intervention
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Chopin's heart
"Chopin was buried in Paris but following his dying wish, his heart was removed and sent home to his native land Poland."
Read that somewhere, and assume it to be e truth.
Which leads me to wonder : why are people so attached? To material things, to status, to beliefs, to tradition... Such that even at the point of death, you are still concerned over where u will be buried.
You are dead! It won't make any difference! Will you be in heaven and upset that your heart is in Paris and not Poland? I truly think not. Not if heaven is that happy and peaceful a place.
Every one starts their life with the same end point: that of death. The only thing I can be reasonably sure of in this life is the fact that I will die. In such case, why not be prepared for death, why not accept it and face the fact that we all will die.
Once we accept and realise the fact, than we can start to live. To live without e fear of death. To live in each and every moment for that might be your last. To treasure all, to live in gratitude...to Simply to be
Read that somewhere, and assume it to be e truth.
Which leads me to wonder : why are people so attached? To material things, to status, to beliefs, to tradition... Such that even at the point of death, you are still concerned over where u will be buried.
You are dead! It won't make any difference! Will you be in heaven and upset that your heart is in Paris and not Poland? I truly think not. Not if heaven is that happy and peaceful a place.
Every one starts their life with the same end point: that of death. The only thing I can be reasonably sure of in this life is the fact that I will die. In such case, why not be prepared for death, why not accept it and face the fact that we all will die.
Once we accept and realise the fact, than we can start to live. To live without e fear of death. To live in each and every moment for that might be your last. To treasure all, to live in gratitude...to Simply to be
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Homework: To try a little kindness
Firstly, this isnt a kindness movement kind of homework/thingy.
i am taking a class on the six perfections, and generosity/giving is the first perfection. so obviously to make the lesson stick, the Ven. wanted us to do some homework, by doing some giving.
it could be simply giving your smile, your eye contact, acknowledgement. or giving of your time to aid others, or maybe going out of your way to help someone. anything goes, as long as you have the compassion to help.
and no surprises, i failed my homework. in the one week since she set the homework, i have not once managed to fulfil it.
Is it so hard to smile at people? it is hard for me, coz i lack social interaction skills.
but if i were to analyse further into the rationale behind finding it hard to smile at strangers (it is not solely because they are strangers), i would have to admit that my self/ego is at play.
it is the tot that i am different, that they are not worth my time, that i am more important....that i m too tired to smile, that i have other better things to do
i will no doubt fail all the other homework that will be set in the coming weeks.
but i am grateful that i am at least looking at the issues with my eyes open, and learning more with each passing day.
i am taking a class on the six perfections, and generosity/giving is the first perfection. so obviously to make the lesson stick, the Ven. wanted us to do some homework, by doing some giving.
it could be simply giving your smile, your eye contact, acknowledgement. or giving of your time to aid others, or maybe going out of your way to help someone. anything goes, as long as you have the compassion to help.
and no surprises, i failed my homework. in the one week since she set the homework, i have not once managed to fulfil it.
Is it so hard to smile at people? it is hard for me, coz i lack social interaction skills.
but if i were to analyse further into the rationale behind finding it hard to smile at strangers (it is not solely because they are strangers), i would have to admit that my self/ego is at play.
it is the tot that i am different, that they are not worth my time, that i am more important....that i m too tired to smile, that i have other better things to do
i will no doubt fail all the other homework that will be set in the coming weeks.
but i am grateful that i am at least looking at the issues with my eyes open, and learning more with each passing day.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
To understand suffering
That is one of the core teaching of Buddhism, and the central learning of my life these days.
Well, almost everyone knows about suffering. but are we viewing suffering in the right manner, ie having the right view and understanding about suffering?
After learning more about the First Noble Truth, I must admit that my understanding and consequently realisation of/about suffering is so so limited and superficial.
Suffering is not simply a word to describe pain or agony. There are many different levels to suffering as it is. To put it simply, as long as you are not happy, you are suffering. And most often the case, that is all the time
And who can deny the fact that we are constantly seeking happiness from external sources? But those happiness are typically fleeting, impermanent.
I am only at the stage where to understand suffering is to be able to objectify suffering, and say "This is suffering"....
That is my mantra these days. This is SUFFERING
Well, almost everyone knows about suffering. but are we viewing suffering in the right manner, ie having the right view and understanding about suffering?
After learning more about the First Noble Truth, I must admit that my understanding and consequently realisation of/about suffering is so so limited and superficial.
Suffering is not simply a word to describe pain or agony. There are many different levels to suffering as it is. To put it simply, as long as you are not happy, you are suffering. And most often the case, that is all the time
And who can deny the fact that we are constantly seeking happiness from external sources? But those happiness are typically fleeting, impermanent.
I am only at the stage where to understand suffering is to be able to objectify suffering, and say "This is suffering"....
That is my mantra these days. This is SUFFERING
Picnic talk
At smu for a talk.
Wow I m old. E kids are so young and feels so different.
Interesting experience. I wonder if I still look like a student? But there's a wide range here.
All laptops. I'm so backward. : ) sigh and early.
This is suffering. Understand suffering...
It's like a picnic on here.
Wow I m old. E kids are so young and feels so different.
Interesting experience. I wonder if I still look like a student? But there's a wide range here.
All laptops. I'm so backward. : ) sigh and early.
This is suffering. Understand suffering...
It's like a picnic on here.
May I
May I always have favourable conditions to practice
May I forever remember to take refuge in e Triple Gems
May the four Noble Truth be realised in my life
May I constantly practice e Noble Eight-fold Path on my journey of enlightenment
May each and every action and thought be for e benefit of all sentient beings
May I be disciplined to live each and every moment in practice, to develop Bodhicitta
May I forever have e right motivations in my thoughts, actions and speech
May I have and make the right aspirations to aid and guide me on my path towards enlightenment
May I forever remember to take refuge in e Triple Gems
May the four Noble Truth be realised in my life
May I constantly practice e Noble Eight-fold Path on my journey of enlightenment
May each and every action and thought be for e benefit of all sentient beings
May I be disciplined to live each and every moment in practice, to develop Bodhicitta
May I forever have e right motivations in my thoughts, actions and speech
May I have and make the right aspirations to aid and guide me on my path towards enlightenment
Deaths and joy
I volunteer at tan tock seng hospital. And recently one of e patients died.
And I experienced so much compassion and love from e other volunteers who went out of their way to assist e family etc. And I thought to myself, what have I done for them? Pretty much nothing.
I felt joy at seeing e sharing and compassion that was going around and ashamed that all I did or could do ( due to my own obstacles) was so limited.
And if I may be selfish, that patient was one of those whom I loved to visit coz he was at peace (seemingly) and enjoyed e activity that we do with/ for him.
I m happy at some level that he left coz he would no longer suffer and I can only hope that he left feeling at peace
And I experienced so much compassion and love from e other volunteers who went out of their way to assist e family etc. And I thought to myself, what have I done for them? Pretty much nothing.
I felt joy at seeing e sharing and compassion that was going around and ashamed that all I did or could do ( due to my own obstacles) was so limited.
And if I may be selfish, that patient was one of those whom I loved to visit coz he was at peace (seemingly) and enjoyed e activity that we do with/ for him.
I m happy at some level that he left coz he would no longer suffer and I can only hope that he left feeling at peace
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Human being, not human doing
Saw a tee shirt that went "I am a human being, not a human doing".
Guess it explains my entry?
We are meant to be, not to do. To live in e moment and not simply doing every moment. Time does fly and it will never return. So if u r doing every min, when are u being or enjoying yourself?
Guess it explains my entry?
We are meant to be, not to do. To live in e moment and not simply doing every moment. Time does fly and it will never return. So if u r doing every min, when are u being or enjoying yourself?
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Never an idle moment
Had a chat and a stroll down orchard road with a spiritual senior.
It was a great lesson for it opened my eyes and taught me that every single moment can be meaningful.
Most of us when walking down orchard road will be busy with something. Either chatting with friends or looking at sale ads or busy wondering where we should go next.
For one thing, that is not being mindful.
For another, u r wasting your time, which could be employed in more meaningful pursuits. Example sending metta out to e world around you......
It was a great lesson for it opened my eyes and taught me that every single moment can be meaningful.
Most of us when walking down orchard road will be busy with something. Either chatting with friends or looking at sale ads or busy wondering where we should go next.
For one thing, that is not being mindful.
For another, u r wasting your time, which could be employed in more meaningful pursuits. Example sending metta out to e world around you......
Friday, September 18, 2009
You come to school to be happy
I think that applies to every aspect of our lives.
The message came from the documentary "Children full of life".
Their teacher teaches that they come to school to be happy and hence should not cause suffering to others and thus should have compassion.
Is that not e case for all? But yet we cause others to suffer every other moment. We seek happinesss, as do others. So why are we not mindful enough to reduce e suffering of others that are due to our behavior?
The message came from the documentary "Children full of life".
Their teacher teaches that they come to school to be happy and hence should not cause suffering to others and thus should have compassion.
Is that not e case for all? But yet we cause others to suffer every other moment. We seek happinesss, as do others. So why are we not mindful enough to reduce e suffering of others that are due to our behavior?
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Respect the Introverts!!!!
Just re-read an article from long time ago, about introverts.
http://www.theatlantic.com/doc/200303/rauch
Very interesting and insightful article.
As a self proclaimed introvert, it truly resonates with me, and it articulated all that i want to say and share about being an introvert!
Just because i do not like to talk, or interact socially, doesnt mean that i am aloof or anything. I do care, but just do not see the need to broadcast that concern to the whole world at large.
In general, i do agree that introverts are widely and easily misunderstood. And there are numerous reasons for it, the most obvious being the fact that we hear and see extroverts so much more, and take that to be the norm (coz they do overshadow introverts to a huge extent), and of course extroverts have evaluated introverts based on their own yardstick. To take it even further, I suppose introverts are being oppressed to some degree.
I do listen. I just hate to talk. And pls dont bother me with your mindless questions.
http://www.theatlantic.com/doc/200303/rauch
Very interesting and insightful article.
As a self proclaimed introvert, it truly resonates with me, and it articulated all that i want to say and share about being an introvert!
Just because i do not like to talk, or interact socially, doesnt mean that i am aloof or anything. I do care, but just do not see the need to broadcast that concern to the whole world at large.
In general, i do agree that introverts are widely and easily misunderstood. And there are numerous reasons for it, the most obvious being the fact that we hear and see extroverts so much more, and take that to be the norm (coz they do overshadow introverts to a huge extent), and of course extroverts have evaluated introverts based on their own yardstick. To take it even further, I suppose introverts are being oppressed to some degree.
I do listen. I just hate to talk. And pls dont bother me with your mindless questions.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Differences in attitude and outreach
Just to share a story I heard. Not certain about the accuracy of it, but it cant be far off from the truth.
Remember the New World Hotel collapse? About thirty over people died in that accident.
As with all other disasters, religious groups will step forward to provide aid to the victims… well, it appears that a church came forth the next day, announcing that they will set up bursary funds for children whose parents perish in the building, to support their education, etc.
And then a temple stepped forth, to say that they will provide free prayer services for the deceased victims (I assume either during the wake or the lunar 7th month).
It was a very good example to me, of the differences in attitudes and outreach actions between the different religious groups. The different sort of needs that they perceived were required.
Both groups were right, in their own ways, but the general population will have a different interpretation.
Is the living more important than the dead?
Coming from my limited Buddhism knowledge point of view, I would say both are equally important. Maybe the western world/educated might think that the living matters more than the dead. But if there is a cycle of birth and death, if energy can never be destroyed, than both the living and the dead matters.
We will always “exist”, even in different forms after death (just think of energy). So it would be important to also take care of the dead. And for that, I applaud the temple, who had the foresight of providing for the “forgotten”.
Yet sometimes the shortsightedness in me will only see what is visible, in the present world, and think that the living is more important….
Remember the New World Hotel collapse? About thirty over people died in that accident.
As with all other disasters, religious groups will step forward to provide aid to the victims… well, it appears that a church came forth the next day, announcing that they will set up bursary funds for children whose parents perish in the building, to support their education, etc.
And then a temple stepped forth, to say that they will provide free prayer services for the deceased victims (I assume either during the wake or the lunar 7th month).
It was a very good example to me, of the differences in attitudes and outreach actions between the different religious groups. The different sort of needs that they perceived were required.
Both groups were right, in their own ways, but the general population will have a different interpretation.
Is the living more important than the dead?
Coming from my limited Buddhism knowledge point of view, I would say both are equally important. Maybe the western world/educated might think that the living matters more than the dead. But if there is a cycle of birth and death, if energy can never be destroyed, than both the living and the dead matters.
We will always “exist”, even in different forms after death (just think of energy). So it would be important to also take care of the dead. And for that, I applaud the temple, who had the foresight of providing for the “forgotten”.
Yet sometimes the shortsightedness in me will only see what is visible, in the present world, and think that the living is more important….
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Any job lobangs for me?
I took a break from work, and now think it is high time I go back into the workforce.
While I am still lazy and taking my own sweet time to find the “perfect” match, pls do holler if you come across something that might suit me.
The below is more for me to straighten out my thoughts, but you can use it to help me think ; )
I am definitely adhering strictly to Right Livelihood
- NGO, NPO, preferably Dharma related, or other social causes that I have a passion in
- Structured environment
- Socially responsible organization
While I am still lazy and taking my own sweet time to find the “perfect” match, pls do holler if you come across something that might suit me.
The below is more for me to straighten out my thoughts, but you can use it to help me think ; )
I am definitely adhering strictly to Right Livelihood
- NGO, NPO, preferably Dharma related, or other social causes that I have a passion in
- Structured environment
- Socially responsible organization
Friday, September 11, 2009
To be compassionate is to act
Maybe someone should come up with an ABC of Compassion.
Compassion, in some ways, could be aliken to sympathy. But it is truly one step up, for it involves action.
You might feel pity/sad/disillusioned, etc, for someone, for a cause, but unless you get off your bum to act on that feeling, it is simply sympathy. And you can sit at home, in front of the television, feeling pity for the victims….but all that does, is make you feel “good”. Good about yourself, because you are empathetic, because you are not the victim, because you are better off….
Compassion, on the other hand, translates sympathy into action and more. It is about reaching out, about sharing, about kindness, without pity, without judgments, and it is NOT about YOU. It is about the other party, about the one receiving. You find joy in being the giver, the helper, and not to bask in the glory of thanks or recognition. It comes from a true heart that is willing to assist, to spread the love and kindness all around, to put in that tiny effort that is all of your being.
To be compassionate is to LOVE. If we have love for all the beings, we will be compassionate to all. To act on that love and make the universe a place of less suffering.
I have more sympathy than compassion. But I will act on what I have.
Compassion, in some ways, could be aliken to sympathy. But it is truly one step up, for it involves action.
You might feel pity/sad/disillusioned, etc, for someone, for a cause, but unless you get off your bum to act on that feeling, it is simply sympathy. And you can sit at home, in front of the television, feeling pity for the victims….but all that does, is make you feel “good”. Good about yourself, because you are empathetic, because you are not the victim, because you are better off….
Compassion, on the other hand, translates sympathy into action and more. It is about reaching out, about sharing, about kindness, without pity, without judgments, and it is NOT about YOU. It is about the other party, about the one receiving. You find joy in being the giver, the helper, and not to bask in the glory of thanks or recognition. It comes from a true heart that is willing to assist, to spread the love and kindness all around, to put in that tiny effort that is all of your being.
To be compassionate is to LOVE. If we have love for all the beings, we will be compassionate to all. To act on that love and make the universe a place of less suffering.
I have more sympathy than compassion. But I will act on what I have.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
My life is passing me by
It does sound as if I am very very old. But who is to say that the young cannot feel the same way.
Despair is truly a very fearful emotion/state of mind, for it can keep you inert for the longest time, fearful of action, of failure, of the whole world giving up on you, when it is yourself that has given up.
There are times in my life when despair has/had a strong grip over me. The feeling of wanting to give up, that nothing would ever work, that I would be suffering forever. I know there are remedies, but I would fail to get up to apply them.
It is amazing really, a single (or few) thoughts can totally cripple one’s life.
Teachers can teach about reframing, about a positive attitude, positive thoughts, etc. But they cant help you apply it in your life. You would need to do it yourself!
Your life is only passing you by if you do not stand up to it, to make it fulfilling, if you do not live in the moment, and be grateful of all that you have.
Despair is truly a very fearful emotion/state of mind, for it can keep you inert for the longest time, fearful of action, of failure, of the whole world giving up on you, when it is yourself that has given up.
There are times in my life when despair has/had a strong grip over me. The feeling of wanting to give up, that nothing would ever work, that I would be suffering forever. I know there are remedies, but I would fail to get up to apply them.
It is amazing really, a single (or few) thoughts can totally cripple one’s life.
Teachers can teach about reframing, about a positive attitude, positive thoughts, etc. But they cant help you apply it in your life. You would need to do it yourself!
Your life is only passing you by if you do not stand up to it, to make it fulfilling, if you do not live in the moment, and be grateful of all that you have.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
形与行
I have been meaning to write on this topic for the longest time. But inertia was too great, plus the unwillingness to reflect on my life/practice.
By行, I was referring to my Buddhism practices, which could broadly be categorized into 2 types. The “external” practice, meaning, meditation, chanting, sutra recitation, etc; and “internal” practice, which I define as upholding the precepts, 10 wholesome deeds, watching our speech, actions and thoughts, etc, basically living by example, Buddhist behaviors.
I fully realize and understand the need for行 in our daily lives. Without行, I can hardly call myself a Buddhist. Yet, for a long time, I placed more emphasis on形.
形 can refer to the external appearances of practicing, ie sitting on a cushion, but with the mind wandering, a shell of the practicing. Yes, I know it is common for the mind to wonder during the meditation, but if we were to seriously observe the mind and our efforts, one might find that we do not exert enough (or any) effort to “control” the mind. It is very easy to sit on the cushion and chant. But to put in efforts to ensure mindfulness on the Buddha’s name, that is hard!
It is as if I think that just sitting on the cushion is sufficient to pass off as practice. I know how much effort I put into my practice, into controlling my mind. And all I can say, is that I am only practicing形, practicing the external appearances of a practice.
Over time, I discovered about my形, and saw that, at the same time, I lacked the foundations for internal行. I have been attending classes on the basics of Buddhism, but that is not sufficient. The teachings were never yet internalized, nor put into application.
Well, you can ask, what the h*** was I doing than? And my shameful reply would be “I thought I was practicing, that that was sufficient.” There is so much more for me to learn, which I am doing everyday, but sometimes I slow down to observe others, and I wonder (hopefully without judgment), if they are practicing形 or 行…
It is truly a concern (at least to me), that a lot of folks are just practicing形, that they think, (or maybe were taught) that that is sufficient? But is it? Based on personal experience, it isn’t enough. Practice without understanding, without foundations, would not lead you anywhere.
I am a Pureland practitioner, and while Pureland is already a “shortcut” for the path to enlightenment, I have been encouraged, to at least have some small, minimal pockets of time for mindfulness of the Amitabha Buddha’s name (seemingly another shortcut for busy modern people).
That is obviously a good start, but barely sufficient. True, we can tap on Amitabha Buddha’s merits, but there are still some prerequisites before we are “permitted” into his Pureland.
I once held on to the belief that my faith and his merits would be sufficient for me to gain rebirth there, but somehow, subsequently I learnt that I didn’t have enough merits of my own to “propel” me to the level where I can tap on His. My 行 wasn’t solid enough, and形 just made it worst.
In some ways, I am left with nothing now. For I gave up on my 形, and am hardly practicing 行…. 阿弥驼佛
By行, I was referring to my Buddhism practices, which could broadly be categorized into 2 types. The “external” practice, meaning, meditation, chanting, sutra recitation, etc; and “internal” practice, which I define as upholding the precepts, 10 wholesome deeds, watching our speech, actions and thoughts, etc, basically living by example, Buddhist behaviors.
I fully realize and understand the need for行 in our daily lives. Without行, I can hardly call myself a Buddhist. Yet, for a long time, I placed more emphasis on形.
形 can refer to the external appearances of practicing, ie sitting on a cushion, but with the mind wandering, a shell of the practicing. Yes, I know it is common for the mind to wonder during the meditation, but if we were to seriously observe the mind and our efforts, one might find that we do not exert enough (or any) effort to “control” the mind. It is very easy to sit on the cushion and chant. But to put in efforts to ensure mindfulness on the Buddha’s name, that is hard!
It is as if I think that just sitting on the cushion is sufficient to pass off as practice. I know how much effort I put into my practice, into controlling my mind. And all I can say, is that I am only practicing形, practicing the external appearances of a practice.
Over time, I discovered about my形, and saw that, at the same time, I lacked the foundations for internal行. I have been attending classes on the basics of Buddhism, but that is not sufficient. The teachings were never yet internalized, nor put into application.
Well, you can ask, what the h*** was I doing than? And my shameful reply would be “I thought I was practicing, that that was sufficient.” There is so much more for me to learn, which I am doing everyday, but sometimes I slow down to observe others, and I wonder (hopefully without judgment), if they are practicing形 or 行…
It is truly a concern (at least to me), that a lot of folks are just practicing形, that they think, (or maybe were taught) that that is sufficient? But is it? Based on personal experience, it isn’t enough. Practice without understanding, without foundations, would not lead you anywhere.
I am a Pureland practitioner, and while Pureland is already a “shortcut” for the path to enlightenment, I have been encouraged, to at least have some small, minimal pockets of time for mindfulness of the Amitabha Buddha’s name (seemingly another shortcut for busy modern people).
That is obviously a good start, but barely sufficient. True, we can tap on Amitabha Buddha’s merits, but there are still some prerequisites before we are “permitted” into his Pureland.
I once held on to the belief that my faith and his merits would be sufficient for me to gain rebirth there, but somehow, subsequently I learnt that I didn’t have enough merits of my own to “propel” me to the level where I can tap on His. My 行 wasn’t solid enough, and形 just made it worst.
In some ways, I am left with nothing now. For I gave up on my 形, and am hardly practicing 行…. 阿弥驼佛
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Invitation to Compassion
Dear friends, I am part of a network called com.passion.sg, which aims to inspire and cultivate compassion, both in ourselves and in others. If you are keen to do some volunteering/charity work, cultivate compassion, etc, pls do join us for the soft launch. Or you can inform me, and I will keep you in the loop for upcoming projects. The website is still under construction, but you can view some of our views on Compassion @ http://com.passion.sg/
com.passion.sg soft launch details:
Date: Sat 26 Sept
Time: 2.00pm till 4.00pm
Venue: THE NECESSARY STAGE
Marine Parade Community Building
278 Marine Parade Road
#B1-02
Singapore 449282
Tel: 64408115
RSVP: sgcompassion@gmail.com
com.passion.sg soft launch details:
Date: Sat 26 Sept
Time: 2.00pm till 4.00pm
Venue: THE NECESSARY STAGE
Marine Parade Community Building
278 Marine Parade Road
#B1-02
Singapore 449282
Tel: 64408115
RSVP: sgcompassion@gmail.com
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