Firstly, this isnt a kindness movement kind of homework/thingy.
i am taking a class on the six perfections, and generosity/giving is the first perfection. so obviously to make the lesson stick, the Ven. wanted us to do some homework, by doing some giving.
it could be simply giving your smile, your eye contact, acknowledgement. or giving of your time to aid others, or maybe going out of your way to help someone. anything goes, as long as you have the compassion to help.
and no surprises, i failed my homework. in the one week since she set the homework, i have not once managed to fulfil it.
Is it so hard to smile at people? it is hard for me, coz i lack social interaction skills.
but if i were to analyse further into the rationale behind finding it hard to smile at strangers (it is not solely because they are strangers), i would have to admit that my self/ego is at play.
it is the tot that i am different, that they are not worth my time, that i am more important....that i m too tired to smile, that i have other better things to do
i will no doubt fail all the other homework that will be set in the coming weeks.
but i am grateful that i am at least looking at the issues with my eyes open, and learning more with each passing day.
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